You're just another one of my mistakes.

Sorry for the absence of updates. It's hard to remind myself to visit a secondary website from my usuals. I will try harder, I promise.

This has been an interesting week.

Yesterday, I worked with a majority of the cast of Glee for a signing. It went well, they were very nice. I find actors tend to associate with other people very differently than the majority does. They are VERY nice. Normally, I find this a positive trait. It IS positive, but I get the feeling they don't really mean it. However, these were teenage actors, which is mostly what I am accustomed to. I have to say, I don't think they know how to project their true feelings, and I sometimes wonder if they really even have them. Or if they've been conditioned to behave and treat strangers a specific way, which negates, and perhaps, stifles, their own true feelings or behaviors. This is probably why child actors go crazy. I detect nothing more than a hollow shiny persona, which, frankly, scares me a little. It's a bit like sociopaths in training, don't you think? I think the child actor has a few differences, but some of the characteristics are spot on. Let's dissect a little, shall we?

Let me preface this by saying, this is purely what I assume of child actors, probably in relation to the massive amounts of E! True Hollywood Story and child actor biographies I've watched and read and has nothing to do with the actual encounters I have had, it is a complete tangent to what I was saying before, I have had zero negative encounters with any actors whatsoever.

Here are some of the descriptions of behaviors of your common sociopath with my two cents added in RED:

- Glibness and Superficial Charm.

Check.

- Manipulative and Conning
They never recognize the rights of others and see their self-serving behaviors as permissible. They appear to be charming, yet are covertly hostile and domineering, seeing their victim as merely an instrument to be used. They may dominate and humiliate their victims.

I'm inclined to agree.

- Grandiose Sense of Self
Feels entitled to certain things as "their right."

Check.

- Pathological Lying
Has no problem lying coolly and easily and it is almost impossible for them to be truthful on a consistent basis. Can create, and get caught up in, a complex belief about their own powers and abilities. Extremely convincing and even able to pass lie detector tests.

Well, this is kind of their job, isn't it?

- Lack of Remorse, Shame or Guilt
A deep seated rage, which is split off and repressed, is at their core. Does not see others around them as people, but only as targets and opportunities. Instead of friends, they have victims and accomplices who end up as victims. The end always justifies the means and they let nothing stand in their way.

I'm guessing this is what it takes, in some actor's eyes, to get to the top.

- Shallow Emotions
When they show what seems to be warmth, joy, love and compassion it is more feigned than experienced and serves an ulterior motive. Outraged by insignificant matters, yet remaining unmoved and cold by what would upset a normal person. Since they are not genuine, neither are their promises.

Check.

- Incapacity for Love

I'm going to guess actors suffer from the same insecurities most rockstars do, which is what explains the quest for fame. Most have difficulty loving, but all of them want to be loved...to an absurd degree.

- Need for Stimulation
Living on the edge. Verbal outbursts and physical punishments are normal. Promiscuity and gambling are common.

Well, I guess this one doesn't exactly fit. Because the surrounding people of said famous person want to touch fame so badly, they wouldn't dare have the strength of self to tell someone famous or potentially reaching fame that they are behaving in a self detrimental manner. They are a bunch of pussies who have no moral standard, and should go fuck themselves. They are potentially more to blame than the actor's themselves.

Callousness/Lack of Empathy
Unable to empathize with the pain of their victims, having only contempt for others' feelings of distress and readily taking advantage of them.

I guess this doesn't fit, either. Since, typically, child actors don't have traditional "victims".

Poor Behavioral Controls/Impulsive Nature
Rage and abuse, alternating with small expressions of love and approval produce an addictive cycle for abuser and abused, as well as creating hopelessness in the victim. Believe they are all-powerful, all-knowing, entitled to every wish, no sense of personal boundaries, no concern for their impact on others.

Same, to an extent. However, the all-powerful, all-knowing part and on probably ring true.

Early Behavior Problems/Juvenile Delinquency
Usually has a history of behavioral and academic difficulties, yet "gets by" by conning others. Problems in making and keeping friends; aberrant behaviors such as cruelty to people or animals, stealing, etc.

I don't think I even need to expound on this one.

Irresponsibility/Unreliability
Not concerned about wrecking others' lives and dreams. Oblivious or indifferent to the devastation they cause. Does not accept blame themselves, but blames others, even for acts they obviously committed.

Same.

Promiscuous Sexual Behavior/Infidelity
Promiscuity, child sexual abuse, rape and sexual acting out of all sorts.

This one is a person by person basis, just like the rest of the population. I'm not sure the statistics differ much with child actors as it does any other community.

Lack of Realistic Life Plan/Parasitic Lifestyle
Tends to move around a lot or makes all encompassing promises for the future, poor work ethic but exploits others effectively.

This.

Criminal or Entrepreneurial Versatility
Changes their image as needed to avoid prosecution. Changes life story readily.

Uh. THIS THIS THIS. Read: every single famous person who grew up with fame and has been in legal trouble.

That's enough about child actors.

Today, I looked at a reception site with Lisa for her upcoming wedding. I'm not going to lie, we weren't impressed. I also think that wedding receptions are ridiculous expensive.

Today, I also came into some things that will potentially get me into Austin soon. YES.

Okay, that is all for now.