Attitude! You've got some fucking attitude!

I have no idea what my issue is, but I've been working with a short fuse the past two days. I feel like a body of water that is expanding and contracting, ready to overflow at any moment with intense angry fuckery. At the moment, I am merely irritable, but something is definitely bubbling at the surface. Which, overall, is pretty strange. There is absolutely nothing going on, or nothing that has happened that warrants this sort of feeling. My experiences with people have been pleasant, with the exception of a few mildly annoying scenarios, but that's completely the norm when you work retail, I never have a problem shrugging those off my shoulder.

Poor Tyler had to bear a little bit of the brunt of it the other night, when he called me and woke me up, singing a song to me at 3am. But, at least I explained to him it wasn't him I was annoyed with, I was just a crabby pants in general and it wasn't his fault. But sometimes, when you're inebriated, it's hard not to take someone else's moodiness personally. He seemed to get over it quickly, although his demands for me to "stop being crabby" the past two days are futile. However, I have ceased to take my crabbiness out on him since that first night.

I have stopped using my regular sleep aids and have gone back to nyquil, which is less effective and less calming, so this could be the culprit, as the quality and amount of sleep I have been getting has been dramatically cut down. I should probably go see my doctor soon.

If I still got a period, I would think I was PMSing. But I don't. However, I am due for another depo shot, so maybe that is it. I've never had this before when I have been due for a shot, so it's highly unlikely this is the case. I'm going to assume that it is merely due to the massive amounts of change coming up, and my inability to control any of it just yet because nothing is set in stone. I am anxious to put all of the little pieces of my life into place, and have some serious concerns that it won't fall together as easily as I need it to. I'm also overdue for some Tyler time. This upcoming visit is going to entail a lot of practicality and will potentially get me to Austin quicker that I had originally anticipated. I'm stressing big time about this weekend, but I am also excited. I guess this is probably the root of my irritability. My emotions are pulling themselves in two different directions.

That, or I just need a real night's rest.

See? This is why I write blogs. Thinking in text helps me sort through the clutter that encompasses my brain and figure out what is going on. Well, that, and sometimes, you just have to make a record of the crazy that is your life. I wish everyone I knew wrote blogs. Or, at least more people I knew.

I am currently waiting for Harry Potter 6 to load so I can watch it, since it has become blatantly obvious I am not going to make it to the theaters to see it anytime soon. Time to rehydrate and wash my face.